When did this happen? When did September suddenly arrive? Nope, I'm not ready at all...I want more heat and beach days, more lounging at the campsite more outdoor evenings with friends. Summer is not as much fun without the constant presence of the sun. This summer has been a bit lacklustre. I do however have friends who have quite enjoyed the cooler days, and yes it does have its own plus side. But I feel ripped off... Ok I know we can still have an amazing warm fall...but as far as trends go I'm not holding my breath at this point.
Oh there are great things I love about fall too...the warm sun even on crisp days, the bounty coming in from the fields, the stunning colors of fall...warm casseroles and soups. Wearing jeans, hopefully lol, and sweaters...cozy socks and blankets. I could keep going...I try to find the joy in every season and every day, it has become a part of my self care. So even though I know summer is passing, there will be another one right around the corner.
Every day has a blessing in it somewhere, reach for it, search for it and enjoy the warmth it brings...look hard for it, it is worth it!
Tuesday, August 23, 2016
Wait a minute...
When did this happen? When did September suddenly become 8 days away? Nope, I'm not ready at all...I want more heat and beach days, more lounging at the campsite more outdoor evenings with friends. Summer is not as much fun without the constant presence of the sun. This summer has been a bit lacklustre. I do however have friends who have quite enjoyed the cooler days, and yes it does have its own plus side. But I feel ripped off... Ok I know we can still have an amazing warm fall...but as far as trends go I'm not holding my breath at this point.
Oh there are great things I love about fall too...the warm sun even on crisp days, the bounty coming in from the fields, the stunning colors of fall...warm casseroles and soups. Wearing jeans, hopefully lol, and sweaters...cozy socks and blankets. I could keep going...I try to find the joy in every season and every day, it has become a part of my self care. So even though I know summer is passing, there will be another one right around the corner.
Every day has a blessing in it somewhere, reach for it, search for it and enjoy the warmth it brings...look hard for it, it is worth it!
Oh there are great things I love about fall too...the warm sun even on crisp days, the bounty coming in from the fields, the stunning colors of fall...warm casseroles and soups. Wearing jeans, hopefully lol, and sweaters...cozy socks and blankets. I could keep going...I try to find the joy in every season and every day, it has become a part of my self care. So even though I know summer is passing, there will be another one right around the corner.
Every day has a blessing in it somewhere, reach for it, search for it and enjoy the warmth it brings...look hard for it, it is worth it!
Tuesday, August 16, 2016
Life hits hard
...it always amazes me how life can hit us, usually out of the blue and from what seems like all directions. I just finished writing a note to my Aunt, my Uncle Hugh has been diagnosed with aggressive lung cancer. They got the diagnosis on Friday and today, Tuesday he is in hospital with questions about needing hospice. They haven't even talked to an oncologist yet. Then 1 1/2 hours away another Uncle is recovering from major surgery including removing his gallbladder, part of his liver and a large part of his colon and is awaiting biopsy results.
For some families uncles are seen at weddings and funerals...but not our family...we were always around family, spent summers together and Christmases...even mixed it up as both my dad and moms family knew each other fairly well, well most of them...my dads family is 12 and moms was 4 kids. It made for a huge number of aunts, uncles and cousins. Weirdly enough my Uncle Marlin and Aunt Alice(dads sister and brother in law) lived next door to my moms childhood home, my mom babysat for them...so these two uncles specifically knew each other fairly well.
My heart is overwhelmed, memories if my moms illness and death are just constantly whirling around in my head and my empathy for my aunts and cousins is tearing at me because you never know what loosing a parent is like until you face it.
My mind is frantically looking and calling out to God and I know He is wading towards me ever straight, it is I myself that puts the muck around me and as soon as I let it go He will be there with His strong arms and strength to hold me up in the days and months ahead. While I do not fear death at all, I fear the pain of that temporary loss and change it daily life that it brings and of watching those around my hurt and grieve.
For some families uncles are seen at weddings and funerals...but not our family...we were always around family, spent summers together and Christmases...even mixed it up as both my dad and moms family knew each other fairly well, well most of them...my dads family is 12 and moms was 4 kids. It made for a huge number of aunts, uncles and cousins. Weirdly enough my Uncle Marlin and Aunt Alice(dads sister and brother in law) lived next door to my moms childhood home, my mom babysat for them...so these two uncles specifically knew each other fairly well.
My heart is overwhelmed, memories if my moms illness and death are just constantly whirling around in my head and my empathy for my aunts and cousins is tearing at me because you never know what loosing a parent is like until you face it.
My mind is frantically looking and calling out to God and I know He is wading towards me ever straight, it is I myself that puts the muck around me and as soon as I let it go He will be there with His strong arms and strength to hold me up in the days and months ahead. While I do not fear death at all, I fear the pain of that temporary loss and change it daily life that it brings and of watching those around my hurt and grieve.
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